go if you want, i can't stop you

I hadn't listened to much Tegan and Sara for a few years. Then came Heartthrob. It is an enthusiastic and vital celebration of emotions, and the worst of them.
Now I'm All Messed Up is one of the strongest songs on it.

now I'm all messed up/sick inside wondering where/where you're leaving your makeup

now i'm all messed up/sick inside wondering who/whose life you're making worthwhile

There is so much raw emotion in this song. It feels painful, and it feels honest, and it feels relateable. I think that is one of the strongest aspects of Tegan and Sara's work; they have always remained in touch with the everyday and the emotional. Now I'm All Messed Up is one of the best examples of that in their entire discography. 

There is a part at the end where contrasting voices will the other away and then take it all back: go/please stay. I haven't felt so emotional during an upbeat song since No Children.

The strongest part of this, though, is the video. I made my boyfriend (the editor) sit and watch it, knowing he wouldn't like the song, because the editing is *amazing*. The water and ink spots and handwritten lyrics are masterfully woven together and blended with the music. It is gorgeous and, for all that it is "just" ink and water, it heightens the drama of the song. Droplets burst to match the music and it is magnificent.

Seriously. Just watch it.